There are moments in life where I wonder if time should stop. The last few days have been made up of moments like these. I find myself saying "What? Is this real? I'm lost.". Let me explain.
I've been helping take care of Vera for about 6 months now and on Monday we had a graveside service for her because she passed away on Sunday. Over the last few days I've quickly found out that I have developed a pattern of approach and thought throughout my day that surrounded taking care of Vera.
Example: When I cook I always think about all the foods that she would eat or shouldn't(wouldn't) eat and so the question was what was I going to get for her. The not so fun days were days that we were having ANYTHING with tomato products, which I found out a lot of menus here in E-dale did. But then I knew she would be so happy on days that we would have her favorites such as coleslaw, sugar of any kind :) , or corn bread(or anything with beef...just don't tell Myrle:). Now when I get in line at the Center I have a difficult time getting food for myself, odd considering that six months ago it was just the opposite.
Example: lol...I say these things with all the love in my heart and a smile on my face. In Vera's world everyday was Saturday. Chandra and I would get almost daily "talking's to" about doing her dishes and working on the Sabbath. She would sternly say "I respect the Sabbath and we do not do things on the Sabbath and I wish you wouldn't either. There are just a few dishes, they can sit in the sink for one day." To which I would sometimes say "Today isn't Saturday it's Tuesday. But I'll remember on Saturday." Or "I respect the Sabbath too." Or just smile and nod. Oh the moments I will remember.....
Random moments that I would have never had had Jerald not asked me to help with his mother and I had not said yes. Moments that were not always at the time easy but now can be looked upon with fondness and a smile. Even the memories of me getting my hand poked by a long thumbnail seem precious. I always knew this day would come but I guess I had no idea how all of a sudden not having her here would affect my life.
Just a few things that will always be reminders of Vera to me.
5 comments:
Um, what?
Okay I think I got it figured out. There are days that I need more coffee....and computers make me so angry. grrr....but alas all is well.
That's what happens when someone starts to be part of your everyday life. Very nice post and I always loved that list of Vera's. ☺
I can actually read it now, so you must have figured out the problem. :)
I've thought about making a list like that of my own, but I don't think I'm old enough for people to indulge me. ;)
That's a really nice post, Crystal ☺
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